So I liked my own announcement, as did 76 other people. Their comments made me reflect on what I’ve done, what I’ve learned, and why I’m still working in the same place.
“Congrats! WOW has it really been that long?”
Most of the comments were a simple “Congratulations” and many expressed mild shock at how time flies, or how I survived for so long, or both.
My favorite was this one: “17 years and mostly glorious. Well done!”
Mostly glorious. I remember when I joined in 1998 and it felt like we were building a business. In those early years, I spent months in London in a small apartment in South Kensington, working with smart people and intimidating traders to implement new technology. Then we were off to Frankfurt to do it there. It was thrilling. Against most predictions (including my own), our business thrived. We all did.
I also remember laying people off and barely escaping that process myself. I remember fear and stress. I remember a string of bosses and the worst performance review I ever had.
17 years in a large organization means I've seen the best and the worst of people, of teams, and of the firm overall. It means I've failed many times, and learned about the vicissitudes of business and life. Much of what I see now at work is comprised of movies I have seen before.
“All the best for the next 17”
Working in a big organization, I’m increasingly conscious that my work there is not obviously ennobling. I’m not saving lives or saving the planet.
What keeps me working there are 3 Cs: craft, connections, and compensation. Large organizations provide unique opportunities for developing valuable skills, to do so with people around the world inside and outside the firm, and to get paid regularly while you’re learning and connecting.
The organization is a platform, one that I get value from while I deliver value of a different kind to the firm and the people in it. Late in my career, I’ve learned to spend much more time on my craft and my connections and less time focusing on the yearly bonus that’s largely out of my control.
The biggest surprise
The biggest surprise to me is that the recent years have been my best by far. Not the best-paid or best-titled but the most important and the most helpful to people. We’ve changed the culture, given people a voice, and enabled them to take greater control of their career and life.
Although almost all of the people I worked with when I started are long gone, and the people and management I work with now have no idea of my contributions in the past, it's fine. There’s a more important legacy I’d like to leave.
As Maya Angelou has said, “I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”
One woman who left the firm said congratulated me “for making people's work lives sunnier.” I liked that. Increasingly, I’m learning to mark my success by the number of people who say “Thank you for making this a better place.” That kind of feedback makes my work fulfilling and inspires me to do and be more.
Maybe working in a big company can be ennobling after all.